Wednesday, August 04, 2004
another long day... but i like it!
i must have my days packed... then i wont feel down... coz i left home at 7.45 this morning to conduct tuition at 8.30. rushed to school at 10.10 only to find no parking lots after rounding the NIE campus... resorted to the hostel car parks near NIE block 7! at least i dont have to pay parking ahaks!
run out of passport sized photos.. needed by the subject tutors for identification purposes... or i'd rather see it as a means for them to recognise faces so dat those who dont attend classes can be easily identified! we're paid to study, remember? so attendance is equivalent to coming to work.. n no attendance means no pay! n my home printer is down... cant print scanned photo... how ah? tomorrow must give... n i dont have time to take pic.... hmm see how ah... must come up of a battle plan! ahaks!
i believe im leaving the depression mood.... coz i feel happy when im wif my circle of friends... but still down when im alone... well, at least i still have my happy moments... just need to sort out things dat i want to do while im at nie... n plans for the future... coz i think, when u're 26 yrs old, n u're entering the teaching line, knowing once u start teaching, u'll have very little social time.. u'll be spending most of the time in staff room doing marking or lesson planning, or coaching students, or admin work.. n when u go home, u think of nothing but ur unmarked papers, incompleted lesson plans, n ur student matters... so im just afraid i wont give myself time to find a life partner.... n end up being single... which i dont want to! ahaks! moreover, whenever i like someone, im afraid she may be attached... n i dont want to be in dat vicous cycle again.. it just drains me big time....
will see n test water.. see if my radar is working... else.. i'll buy new antenna! ahaks!
time to start working in sch lib.. so dat i can finish my assignment b4 i go for my tajwid class at 9pm.
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