Tuesday, August 03, 2004
i think i dont have a life...
sometimes i wonder why i keep coming to McDonalds East Coast coz here i am again... mebe is the free parking dat attracts me, so dat i dont have to worry about coupons n i can stay here for as long as i want... or mebe its the solitary feeling i get while im here. anyway, if need some fresh air n view, i can just walk down further n meet the sea shore... plus the breakwater is sooo near!! ahaks!
was drained out n tired physically n mentally yesterday. left school at 7.15pm after class to to Simei for tuition session. Students were lazy, they didnt prepare anything for me to answer... the boy didnt even bring home his maths textbook... havent read the chapter, n expected me to help him out by giving him guides or answers... so there i was slow talking n throwing sarcastic remarks here n there to make him realise O Levels r sooo damn freaking near... n he's oredi 2 yrs behind the other normal students coz he's oredi 18.. n doin O Levels... pity his dad for having to pay me when his son is so damn lazy n uncorporative.
drove back like a zombie.. by the time i reached home, i landed on my bed wif my bag n my headphones on. next thing i knew i've slept in dat condition for some time, n my cd had oredi finished playing.. i dunno wat im doing to myself... i think im heading towards depression... i can feel it, i can see the obvious symptoms, but still i cant bring myself out of it. somehow i find solace being depressed....
i can't hold on
to wat i want when im stretched so thin
its all too much to take it
i cant hold on
to anything watching everything spin
with thoughts of failure seeking in
if ure a linkin park fan, u'll know which song i quoted from.
probably i'll stay here till about 11.30, reading up my resource materials for my class today.. really need a new printer to print my schwork.. hmm n my tuition money is still not in..
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