Saturday, August 07, 2004
its soo hard to wake up... i wish i dont have to!
wat a morning. i tot i had to send my dad to work at 8.. it was actually 7.30! so i had to take a quick shower in order to make it on time..
sometimes u know ure not having a good sleep coz u still would feel tired when u wake up.. like today. im still holding on to my sanity... its hard to be the third party.. its not right to be one. my best bro had a third party while he was engaged. they ended up breaking the engagement, n now she's just married to another guy.
i love her too much to destroy her happiness, even at the cost of my happiness n sanity. i know at this moment she's happy wif him. no matter how hard i tried, its just not possible to let her go. even when i tried to think of my ex, it's her dat came in my mind n resided permanently. it just goes to show how deep my love for her, even when im not wif her. if its fated, we'll meet again. i know u guys out there would say its hopeless to have such a thought, but hey, when u believe in something, u'll hold on to it no matter wat rite? such things i leave to God to help me survive. but i believe its never wrong to hope. in fact, the only thing dat a human has which makes him strong is HoPe. like spiderman 2 soundtrack: "hope, dangles on a string, like slow spinning redemption..."
if u read this, remember, if u suddenly think of me for a moment, u know i've been thinking of u all the time : )
time to run errands.......
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