Sunday, August 01, 2004
Me smell of market!
just got back from market wif dad, bought the usual groceries.. fish, beef, chicken... a bit of vegetables.. n nasi lemak for breakfast. then sent my mom to mosque. gotta fetch her by 10.30am. then gotta head down to wedding invitation.. sigh i hate having to dress up smart... used to love to look good.. now i'd rather look messy, haggard n ugly.. haiz..
suddenly started listening to Daniel Bedingfield while i was testing my newly bought thumbdrive. thought of sharing the lyrics wif u here:
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
hmm... in life sometimes u meet ppl, n u feel really sure she's the one for u, but eventually u realise maybe God just allow u to share a moment with her, coz u won't be able to be wif her.. but still... dunno wat the future holds for everyone of us.. i have to tell myself to be contented dat she's happy now.. dat's wat matters. dats y i need to be numb... emotionless if i can too, so dat i wont be bothered by all this...
life sucks, but dats how life teaches us to be stronger... imagine everything to be smooth sailing n happy... it'll crash, just like how the architect in the matrix tried to build.. n ended up crashing n losing the whole human crop. when the feature of choice n having 1% of the entire population to rebel, the system ran smoothly. when the rebel won, all they had to do is to reboot, reload in other words, just like the title of the second of the triology, "Matrix Reloaded"..
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