Thursday, August 05, 2004
uh oh uh oh uh oh...
something has happened to me.. i think im slipping back to where i started...! i dont know y, but i still love her... n i miss her sooo bad i've been depressed all this while. when i got to know she missed me too, i just felt sooo wonderful, so appreciated. suddenly the grass is greener.. the birds chirp better... before dat, everything seemed like a desert to me.. i heard nothing but vultures above my head, or the incoming sand storm dat was eagerly waiting to devour me..
but i know the whole situation is like a burst of energy, that is unstable, has to make it stable... arrrghh, if i were to have the money, i would have proposed her to marry me... n see how it'll be. at least if my proposal is rejected, i know where i stand. as long as she's still not married, there's a lot of possibilities i can come up wif.. sigh..
i know u're reading this .. i want u to know, my true love for u tells me to let u go, to let go of me pinning hopes for a future wif u.. i believe there still is a chance, only time will tell. if u come back one day, i know u're mine for keeps.. if not, at least i know u'd be happier wif dat someone. but please help me by making sure, really really sure u're happy wif him, coz it makes me sad to know u're not happy.. coz i always believe i can bring better happiness to u..
i know u think by telling me how u felt, it may spoil the plans dat i have for myself.. im making my statement public.. watever happens, a part of u will alwiz be wif me.. dis one cannot change, not u, me or situation. it helps me face the world in another perspective, whether better or not, we'll see how it goes. my doors are still open for u..
May God help us solve dis problem... :)
I Miss U.
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