Tuesday, December 21, 2004
So much for surprises..
finally mom has shown her true colours, n dat means she still hasnt changed her mindset, never ever in her lifetime i guess. sorry folks, there'll be no pleasant surprises abt me telling my mom abt my darling Da.
i fetched my dad wif Da yesterday coz i wouldnt have time to send her home n fetch my dad at the same time. Dad looked neutral when he saw the only passenger.. his colleague smiled.. both were happy to see Da, i know. but wat i didnt know was dat my mom was unhappy abt it. i trust my dad didnt tell her but when i reached home, she kinda attacked me wif words saying "sape tumpang kereta kau?" i brushed it aside n said it was a friend. n she blurted the same words, "jgn ade kawan mie, kau blm cukup duit.." i left both my parents alone n returned to my past solitude life at home..
it was pleasant to have my dad asking abt Da Darling while we were heading towards the car dis morning as i sent him to work. got to tell him where she's working n wat she does. conversation was discontinued as i went up the multi-storey car park to get the car myself. hmm, typical dad, will just ask the necessary n short qsns... hmm, im prepared for more of his qsns some other time..
i kept myself occupied cleaning the my entire room.. i have not been able to see the top of my study table, even the floor tiles too.. ive been throwing anything and everything on the floor n the study table top ever since raye started. then mom had to ask again... dis time she claimed it was intuition from Allah dat told her i was dating, dat she didnt even have to ask dad for info. i was disgusted, does she have to brag over her mother's premunition thingy? does dat make her such a pious person? it made me understand further why my sister left the house n ran away 9 yrs ago. i know i cant do dat, wat a "anak derhaka" i'll be. so i decided to shut my hearing n went on wif my spring cleaning. didnt even have time to rest, coz i didnt have the mood to. i ate just for the sake of eating.
but one thing for sure, all plans have to be changed. n i cant wait to implement them. details cant be revealed yet coz its not been finalised. but i'll definitely carry it out.
i pity my Darling Da, for having to go thru dis. i tot after my ex-girlfriend episode wif my mom, history wont repeat. i was truly wrong.. i think my dad's totally wrong abt the positive changes in my mom. IM SORRY, DA... SORRY DAT U HAVE TO GO THRU DIS WIF ME, but i promise i wont let my mom do anything to u, or to us dat will separate us. insyaAllah, we'll get thru dis by end of 2005.
in the meantime, its back to the planning stages.. hope to be able to settle things more or less by end dis week.
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