Sunday, January 09, 2005
Alhamdulillah, finally...
mom said the "when" word. she asked me if Da knew the details of her wish to have the wedding only in June 2006, instead of Dec 2005. before dat, let me give the details of wat happened from morning till evening.
was walking wif mom to car dis morning as i was sending her to mosque. wont be fetching her back coz i was to have my 4PM Volunteer Appreciation Tea at Hotel Park Royal. Guest of Honour was Assoc/Prof Yaakob Ibrahim. mom asked if there was any signs. i told her i didnt but Da had. then she gave me her thoughts. she wanted me to have the marriage only in June 2006. she carried on somemore dat i couldnt remember, but the most significant part was in the car when she oredi accused me of not contributing my pay to her without even asking if i would! i naturally raised my voice, blaring at her dat its not even pay day yet, n mom didnt even ask me if i would give her any. i blurted to her dat i've oredi budgeted dat for her. she didnt sound convinced n said how much would i save then if i were to give her? she even exclaimed dat id be really crazy to have the marriage at the end of dis yr coz she die die believe i wont have the money. i asked her if she were to think id be soo bad a son not to think of her. she said she had considered me not a good son anymore, since the time i defied her wish n started a relationship wif first my ex, then my ex-colleague(when we didnt even start anything) n now Da. mothers, in a fury, would blurt abt almost anything and everything, accusing everybody of being soo evil n bad, while she's the only angel! she mentioned she quitted her job oso becoz i didnt fetch her anymore when i started teaching at Yuying. she said i didnt pity her to fetch her when she's soo tired from working, n since she's facing stress at work n at home, she might as well resign. i remained silent, coz i know watever i said wont count. by then, cik som oredi boarding the car. mom only said the last words as she alighted in front of the mosque. she asked me to think abt it. i told her, its her wish, up to her, i dont have anything to say.
met Da in the afternoon, n told her abt wat happened. we oredi discussed over it last night. i knew i've made her feel sooo sad n bad. it came to a point dat i felt exactly like i was 1 yr ago, when i was soo torn btw the 2 sides dat i decided leave both. Alhamdulillah Da was very accommodative, n willing to wait up till next yr as long as i'll still be wif her, n by her side. i decided to make it a point to visit Da at home every weekend as long as i'm free, n spend more time wif her.
so when Da found out the details dis afternoon, Alhamdulillah she was ok. im sad she had to cry buckets last night, hence i guess she should've felt quite numb just now. we agreed to look on the bright side n plan far, to also include plans for our new house, so dat we could move into OUR OWN house insyaAllah by the time we get married.
later dis evening, mom asked if i've oredi told Da the details. i replied wif a yes, n she asked if her side would be ok. i just told her "should be ah". then she asked when her side wanted us to come over. i told mom, "they're not giving us any dates for us to come over, they're waiting for u, mom..." our talk ended there. we'll see if there'll be any updates..
to my Darling Da: thanx dear, for sounding soo happy when i told u abt it dis evening. thanx for willing to accommodate wif watever conditions thrown at us. i'll continue praying dat Allah will help us in all the things we do, insyaAllah. :)
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