Tuesday, June 07, 2005
The Flat Saga Part 2
Mom n dad went over to Da's place last Sunday to discuss the finer details of the marriage. At dis present moment, it is agreed dat the wedding will be held on 29th April 2006, Saturday, though I heard them mentioning 1st May instead, which will be on Monday. Alhamdulillah, Da's parents and Da herself were more understanding, they gave me support n advice on not to defy my mom and stuffs like dat. As for wat to come out of dis discussion, I myself dunno.
It was fine from the time we came back from Da's place till last night. Dat was when mom went sensitive again. Also due to my fault for being rude to her. I couldn't help it, like Anakin Skywalker, I was still overcome wif anger n frustration not because I couldn't get the flat, but over the accusations n stereotyping she's made against me last Fri. I'm still fighting against my dark side to let go of the grudge and anger in me, but I know it'll take some time. Now mom's not talking to me again. dis morning, it was cold, to the point dat she wanted to go mosque for "Kuliah Dhuha" by herself, while her fractured toe still hurts, and she walked wif a limp. Alhamdulillah, I cancelled my morning appointment and decided not to go school dat early. I left home wif her, n drove her to the mosque. Else it's gonna be another accusation flying to indicate her fury of me getting angry at her whenever she asks me where I went.
U see, being the only child at home now, especially since my sis left, my movements have to be told, my locations be informed, my estimated time of arrival be arranged before hand.. I think, after almost 10 yrs of dis kind of treatment, it has somehow made me furious dat as a 26 yr old guy going 27, I'm still treated like a 7 yr old kid. I have to take dis kind of treatment. I know I have to live wif all dis, Heaven lies at to sole of your mother, so I still owe the respect to my mother, who has carried me for a full 9 mths, gone thru excrutiating labour, and gambled wif her life just to bring me into dis world.... ya, I should extinguish all smoulders of fire in my heart, forgive her for her wrongdoings, and carry on wif life..
now where do I start... Already, I've made Da angry, n dat makes me hurt 2 ladies at one go! sigh, what has become of me... Definitely not a Sith apperentice!
END OF PART 2
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