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Tuesday, July 26, 2005 WHY MOM???!!!

Why do u always have to be the hatred person in the family? Why do u complain to the aunties dat u've been crying every other day over me n my decision to get married? Why did u consent to our relationship in the first place, on the basis of sympathy seeing me sad, n even went thru the engagement only to realise dat u're not approving it afterall? Why do u have to delay the marriage, n prioritise ur feelings without considering the feelings of the other sides' family members, especially Da n her mother? Why did u agree on the date in the previous meeting wif her parents if u decide to extent due to your ficklemindedness? Did you ever consider if they've made all the necessary plans because of the promise you've given them? Why did you admit now dat u're still not satisfied n tak puas makan hasil Emy when u could've said dat much much earlier? why did u allow me to get engaged when u know u only want me all for yourself? If u think her side is selfish, who is more selfish in wanting all my attention n love to be poured only to u n no one else? after what happened between u n my sister dat led her to leave the house n converted, y did u do the same thing to me? do u also want me to leave just like she did?

n now, why did u tell me not to answer Da's call, or any number dat are not familiar, on the basis dat Allah will bless those who want HIS blessing? does hurting other people's feelings means we get HIS blessing? does breaking a promise to another human sounds like a blessing? n Why do people tell me to have my own stand and principle when all these will be overridden by my mom whenever she uses her tears against me? Am i submitting too much to a mother whom is highly regarded in Islam, n any other religions as well? Why mom, Why???

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Just when you think you can rest a while..

... more work comes piling in front of u! Oral Examining is over, so is Speech Day. But... I'm now setting my sec 1 common test paper to be submitted by end of dis wk. On top of that, I have to start preparing for Final Yr Exam papers for Maths sec 1 n CPA sec 2!

Still, Alhamdulillah dat I only have 1 maths class, the rest r CPA classes. Means i have less things to mark compared to that of my friends. I'll make use of the time dat i have now to pace my work progress. Can't let myself slack, must persevere on!

Sometimes I wonder why banks have to close by 3.30pm. n sometimes I also wonder y GIRO form processing can take sooo long! It's estimated dat a GIRO processing will take at least 8 wks. Hence I'll have to pay cash for my Car Loan for the next 2 mths before GIRO deduction can be started.. Alhamdulillah again, dat my sch is near the bank I'm paying to..

hmmm.... I'm thinking of increasing my income, but the tuition I have so far is just 1 at the moment. Another should start soon, but where can I have more?

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Work never ends..

dats wat most ppl say. at dis moment, i couldn't agree less. I still have to stay back in sch till almost 5 every day if im not bringing the C division soccer boys for tournament. these things take up much of my free time, causing me to have virtually no time to mark my books, plan my lessons or even rest. My flu is still around, mebe due to having no time for full recovery. while one work is still going on, another comes in, my school's speech day is on dis coming saturday, n as usual, i'll be involved....!

sigh... but still, alhamdulillah, things r going well for my personal life. insyaAllah things will get better as time passes.

gotta run...

Monday, July 04, 2005

It's Youth Day in Singapore today,

and students need not attend school. Hence, teachers also do not need to come down to school to teach. However, I'm one of the few teachers who are in the staff room now. One may ponder what's the point of coming down to school and waste our precious holiday. But for the few of us, we cherish these days in school where we can do our necessary marking and paperwork at our leisure. In other words, I don't have to rush for lessons, stealing whatever time in between to complete the admin matters that never seem to end! Phew... what a reliever today is..

I've just completed my weekly e-Record book. In the past, teachers used to lug around a large, thick, rectangular, brown hard-covered book for us to key in our weekly brief lesson plans, store the students' class and semestral test results, and whatever extra. Now, we do in in Microsoft Excel format, and submit via the online server in our school for our respective HODs to check. Hence, we save paper and money. I really like that. The only drawback is that I'd need to have a PC or laptop to do it. My given laptop is an old Dell model whose warranty is due to expire this year end. After about 3 years of service to me and the previous owners, the rechargable battery is somehow unrechargable, and can last a mere ten minutes without the external power supply. So working while on the move has to be ruled out. Still, Alhamdulillah I thank Allah for providing me with a laptop, from which I can work on at my workstation in the staff room.

My car is currently at the Honda workshop in Taman Jurong, my usual servicing centre. The mechanic supervisor, Wong, just called to say that my air-conditioner compressor has shorted out. He has ordered a replacement and it should be ready for collection between 4 to 5 later in the afternoon. No wonder I discovered some burning smell when I opened my bonnet cover to inspect the engine compartment yesterday afternoon while visiting my aunt in JB. Alhamdulillah, we didn't get stuck in a jam at 2nd Link on the way home, or it would have been quite a discomfort for my parents.

My advice for those who own cars that still need warranty services. That means we have no choice but to pay costly servicing at regular intervals. Please stick to the schedule and go to the authorised centres to get it serviced. Fret not because you will never know what will go wrong while it is still under warranty. If I had not done so, I may have to fork out between $800 or close to $1,000 for a compressor replacement minus the labour charges. Original ones don't come cheap, and getting a reconditioned (recon) set may not guarantee durability. As for me, I'll have another 4 rounds of warranty servicing before I've expired the 3 year or 100,000km warranty, whichever comes first. Come to think of it, my car is just 1 yr 5 mths old, and I've covered more than 60,ooo km already? :)

Packing up now. Heading to my neighbour's house for the second session of tuition. another 6 more to go before I get my first pay for the semester!

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Tu ah, Hang kata Hang Terra...

I couldnt get up from bed on fri morning.. so i decided to see the doc again to get an MC, n to get a more sedated runny nose tablets.... Doc told me the one he gave me dat was ineffective, was actually more expensive. Furthermore, it only works for certain people. It's meant to relieve the runny nose while not making the user sleepy. So I guess I'm the kind who needs to sleep one.. then can get better insyaAllah!

I spent the whole day sleeping, mom also did the same. She's also down wif flu n fever. I didnt go for fri prayers as I couldnt wake up. Furthermore, I dont want to spread my bug to the mass. I can bet half of the people in the mosques would be coughing n blowing their noses too!

Moral of the Story: Don't act Gung-Ho n decline an MC when the doctor intends to give one. Dat was wat happened when I visited him on tues. Now I ended up visiting him again yesterday! hehehe but its true, when u have the flu bug, the best remedy is to take the sedating medicine n stay in bed the whole day. Alhamdulillah, Im much much better now. Probably I'd be much better if I'd have taken the MC for Wed!! hehehe

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