LiNkInMaDMaN's Matrix

Monday, August 22, 2005 A Temporary Break...

... not from my darling, but from the harsh accusations and the hostile condition both parties have been thrusting to. Alhamdulillah, things have gone for a "ceasefire", no marriage arrangements should be mentioned, at least not for dis yr. InsyaAllah, all parties should be back to the discussion table sometime next yr, where both sides can come to a common understanding, a peaceful compromise, though I almost threw the whole peace treaty to jeopardy.. a special thanx to my Darling's Sis, for inviting me over to clarify, before anything worst takes place.

Thanx to all readers, n friends who have been supporting to my cause. A huge thanx to both ustazs who helped us sort things out, though they may not be reading dis. A very Special Thanx to my one n only Darling, who, despite the torment waves of life hitting like its gonna break our vessel into pieces, stood firmly beside me n helped raise the sail of our journey without fail, while i steer the ship safely out of the storm. *muuacks*

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Choice..

Life is about choice... n it's clearly shown at the end of the Matrix Trilogy that Neo chose to persist and fight against Agent Smith, knowing that it was a losing battle anyway..

So from here, we know everything we do, we have a choice.. in school, i was told, for every choice we make, there are the remaining 500 or 500 other choices we didnt take.

Hence, my parents have made their choice...

N so have I.. will I get my choice?

Stay tuned..

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

To my bro, Fad...

Bro, I wish u'd have a tag on ur blog so dat i can spam it wif my numerous entries!! neway, thanx for being there. I was apprehensive at first coz i initially tot u'd side my mom, especially so when she called me wif a hint dat she knew i didnt meet u days before; which means she's called u. n being in a situation dat none of my family sides me except for the exceptional few, i was too quick to label u as a supporter of my mom. but alhamdulillah im glad u heard my side of story, n u got the clearer pic. i think the fact dat ur face too looked tensed up n upset gave the initial impression dat i'd be doomed by u being influenced by my mom, but i understand u reacted so becoz u're just fed up over the poisons dat's been propogating around my aunts n relatives... but wat the heck, if they don't even bother to ask me personally, y would i bother to announce to them my stand in dis?

once again, bro, thanx for the time to hear me out, n especially the supportive words dat came from u after my previous entry. don't worry, our friendship is still intact. hopefully ur new "office-hour schedule" may allow us some time to catch up at Clementi areas, or anywhere along the way, as long as i can complete watever work at hand i have at staff room, n leave early.

Do watch out for ur back oso, i know my mom could've dropped some poison abt her unhappiness of seeing u n ur partner going out often, even to mosque just the 2 of u, in a vehicle. u should've known her well lah ah... ;)

Monday, August 01, 2005

She has been, is n will still be my fiancee, mother...

... even if u've said yesterday dat the engagement is off n u didn't want to meet them anymore. It wasn't her family's fault for not opening their house door to u n dad when both of u came to their place twice yesterday, one in the morning, n one in the evening. I know u chose to lie to me dat u were at the mosque having haji class when u n dad were trying to meet her parents. I can't help but to think dat u had to cover it up coz i've been lying to u all along, n u want to get even wif it... so fine ah, i dont mind anymore.

All i want to say is dat it was just too bad dat they didnt open the door although u knew they were at home, simply becoz u didnt heed my advice, n especially ustaz azman's advice! just becoz ustaz Azman no longer entirely side ur cause for all dis, u decided to take things into ur hands... me n ustaz knew they were still upset over the matter, n all they wanted for is for time to let them cool down, get composed n get ready for another round of discussion.... but it seems dat u were selfish enuff to ask them to wait for my marriage, dat is actually months n months long, yet u can't tolerate waiting for weeks from now before meeting them again. So, don't blame anyone but urself for dis deplorable state we're all in now..

U've told me dat the engagement is off, i should carry on saving up for marriage, n when the money is enuff (SGD$15,000 u mentioned), then tell u so dat u could propose to them again. Wat i can say is dat i'll do all the necessary preparations, n InsyaAllah, all u n dad need to do is to distribute the invitation cards i'd have printed n distributed to u by nov 2006. dat will leave both of u abt 1 mth to inform everyone. n insyaAllah, not a single cent would i ask from u 2 to support my cause.

My last parting words, thanx mom, n dad, for raising me right from the womb, to who i am now. We know dat as children, we can never repay the kind deeds n help u 2, as parents, have been providing since then, n I can never be ur faithful, filial son anymore... though u claimed u didn't want me to become one, i believed in ur heart n to the eyes of those who u've poisoned, i am oredi one. Whatever it is, i'm now on my own....

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